Monday, February 25, 2008

Update and a little tantrum

Okay, I'm afraid I'm going to have to use my "Hey, I am paper pregnant x's 5" excuse so that maybe it will be understandable when today's posts suddenly go from giddy to tantrum. It used to be that getting an update picture of our kids was the highlight of the month. I would get all excited and call the family over to see it. Now it's not so fun anymore. Honestly.... while I love the pictures... I don't want to see our kids in Haiti anymore!!! I don't want to see the background of the orphanage walls. I don't want to have to receive an update because it means that they are still not home with us. To make matters even more upsetting--- NO NEWS. Yep, not a word about our paperwork which leads me to believe that there has likely been no change and our files just sit on a desk (or in a file) in MOI while we wait helplessly. Most days, with God's help, I can handle this horrible waiting but NOT today! In less then 2 months from now it will be THREE YEARS from when we called and requested to adopt Lovenie. THREE YEARS!!!! Sometimes it just gets to be too much to handle calmly and I instead want to find something to throw against a wall and have a really good tantrum. Today is one of those days so please pray that the first thing I come across to throw is not breakable or costly!

Never fear... In a matter of minutes, hours, or days... I will likely soon be back to happy. However, for now... thanks for letting me share my frustration and heartache!

10 comments:

acceptancewithjoy said...

Oh Angela, I am so sorry! You have been waiting longer than I have and I sometimes feel the very same. Anniversaries, holidays and birthdays are the worst!

Praying for you here...

Oh, and your kids look simply marvelous. Jacques' smile was easy to pick out ~

Amy said...

So good to hear that your son's little boy is home:) I'm also glad to hear that you are seizure free! My husband has a seizure disorder, for about 20 years now from a head injury, and he has been seizure free for almost 2 years! Praise the Lord for new medicine! He was on dilantin for years and it tore him up physically and just switched after his last few seizures to trileptal. Would love to hear about your life with seizures, as its hard as the wife for me to not just live in fear and surrender him to the LORD. have a fantastic day! hugs Amy

Angela said...

Julie- Thank you. I know you understand more then I want you to be able to. ;) Praying all our kids home!

Amy- Please email me if you see this. I couldn't track you down to an email address and would love to chat with you about life with seizures (and without them!)

Beka said...

You're in my prayers as always, my friend. I am so sorry you are still waiting. The days can get so long and when the monthly update gives no information about moving forward, it is disheartening. I am saying a prayer for you and your family right now.
Love ya,
Beka

Amy said...

amylynnehaines@yahoo.com
gotta run, kids are out.of.control!

Tim & Sarah said...

I hate to hear that it has taken this long! I will pray that you will receive news soon, that you are a step closer to bringing your kids home!

The Tall Frys & Small Frys said...

Angela, I check in here from time to time hoping to see that your children are home. I want you to know it's OK to tantrum. Our adoption took 2 years 11 months from first application to homecoming. It makes me so sad to read that your wait is nearly the same now. It hurts, it stinks, it doesn't make sense. This is not meant to make you feel worse, but only to say I understand the angst and need to tantrum. 'Praying you get good news (some news) soon!

Renee said...

Hang in there..i am feeling the exact same way. Most days I am happy, but then comes the wave of anguish, sadness, madness, etc. etc. Your family is beautiful, can't wait until you are all together.
Hugs,
Renee

Becky Hinchley said...

Angela - We didn't get an update on our file status either. I feel your pain!!! Your kids are absolutely gorgeous and we just need to remember they are in capable hands, and they will come home when God decides they need to come home.

Becky

DotBlogger said...

Hi Angela, I too am waiting and stomping my feet. :) It has been 2 years and one month since application. I so anticipated having my girls here by now. So we wait. We wait with you as you wait. I check your blog almost daily. I've said it before and I'll say it again...your kids and my kids play together. Also Edeline, Milouse and Josiane girls play with my Yolanta and Quetelene. It’s okay to rant. I do it with my prayer and accountability group every Monday night.  I just take comfort in knowing that they have friends. And that their friends are going to homes that will also bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord. Maybe that will give you some comfort like it does me. I heard an ugly rumor that the Consulate will be closed all of April. Pray till your knees hurt that all your kids get out of MOI and get their Visa appointments in MARCH. That’s my prayer for my children. I’m sad. You’re sad. But let’s be happy in the Lord, shall we? Easier said than done, I know. And I’m giving myself a prep talk just as much as I am you.